S h e l l Y
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I wish I can be as free as bird can be
as wise as Salomon as wild as lion as kind as Mother Theresa as mysterious as Sherlock Holmes as humourous as ..? who is forever funny? Love arts and music
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Alot of things happen today
I was in devastating emotion when taking with my cousin
Looking at her situation make me feel so helpless
and the worse part, I cant help much in anything
How I wish I can do something to lessen her burden
while in the mid of taking to her..
Someone knocking my door harshly,
I rushed to open the door
It was my friend, who cry badly and she hugged me immediately
I was stunt and speechless for a moment
So what on earth going on?
Then she told me she quarrel with her boyfriend
And she started pouring all her emotion
Till she finally feel better and decided to return to her room
I closed the door
And feeling a little exhausted too by the things happen
Before even I put my butt on my chair,
a ring from my friend,
I picked up, and said, can i come to your place?
In the moment like this,
honestly I feel like being alone
But of course I would say "yeah, just come!"
So 4 of girls
ended up talking nonsense
and bitching about our easter trip
while enjoying the sangria my friend brought from spain
and of course the lovely notebook
is so sweet
I always love it
The basic of all needs. love
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I have a friend who were sick
Lets called it 'C'
I was supposed to finish our assignment
it need to be submitted on those day
On the x day, C said she was very sick
so unabled to do anything
and I needed to complete it by myself and submit it
I was quite frustrated as C haven't done anything on her part
I tried to calm down and finished the assignment by myself
Though a little angry, I was considering should I cooked for her
as she said she was vomitting and she is bad at cooking
I took quite sometimes to think about it
whether I should or not, cook for her..
Although I end up cooking for her
It makes me realise something about myself
I began to question myself
When did I start to be so calculative in what I do..
Its like,.. why do I bother to cook for her
I have nothing in gain
I feel myself very pathetic and pity
for being such calculative and insincere for that thought
I wish I could be more sincere in what I do
I can give u thousand of excuse of why I become like that such as:
- Business student were taught always think of "What is in for me?"
- Being protective over myself, if I did something to someone, my small heart always hope the person will treat me the same way, but most of the time it didnt turn out that way.
- etc etc
But the basic of all
maybe I should learn to love other more than myself
I has been very overprotective toward myself for long
For not to be hurt, not to be scar
But in return I lost alot
to experience something
C saw me today and said thank you for my help the other time
She gave me little present as her gratitude
It wasnt what she gave me that move me
But the feeling of me able to help someone
I miss those feeling
Remind me to be sincere
remind me to be brave
as my journey is long and rocky
but love from others keep me move on
the basic of all need
Labels: little thought
Thursday, April 09, 2009
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