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Girls Night

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Nah,

Alot of things happen today

Emotionally shock

I was in devastating emotion when taking with my cousin

Looking at her situation make me feel so helpless

and the worse part, I cant help much in anything

How I wish I can do something to lessen her burden

while in the mid of taking to her..

Someone knocking my door harshly,

I rushed to open the door

It was my friend, who cry badly and she hugged me immediately

I was stunt and speechless for a moment

So what on earth going on?

Then she told me she quarrel with her boyfriend

And she started pouring all her emotion

Till she finally feel better and decided to return to her room

I closed the door

And feeling a little exhausted too by the things happen

Before even I put my butt on my chair,

a ring from my friend,

I picked up, and said, can i come to your place?

In the moment like this,

honestly I feel like being alone

But of course I would say "yeah, just come!"

So 4 of girls

ended up talking nonsense

and bitching about our easter trip

while enjoying the sangria my friend brought from spain

and of course the lovely notebook

is so sweet

I always love it

Labels: sentimental

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The basic of all needs. love

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I have a friend who were sick

Lets called it 'C'

I was supposed to finish our assignment

it need to be submitted on those day

On the x day, C said she was very sick

so unabled to do anything

and I needed to complete it by myself and submit it

I was quite frustrated as C haven't done anything on her part

I tried to calm down and finished the assignment by myself

Though a little angry, I was considering should I cooked for her

as she said she was vomitting and she is bad at cooking

I took quite sometimes to think about it

whether I should or not, cook for her..

Although I end up cooking for her

It makes me realise something about myself

I began to question myself

When did I start to be so calculative in what I do..

Its like,.. why do I bother to cook for her

I have nothing in gain

I feel myself very pathetic and pity

for being such calculative and insincere for that thought

I wish I could be more sincere in what I do

I can give u thousand of excuse of why I become like that such as:

- Business student were taught always think of "What is in for me?"

- Being protective over myself, if I did something to someone, my small heart always hope the person will treat me the same way, but most of the time it didnt turn out that way.

- etc etc

But the basic of all

maybe I should learn to love other more than myself

I has been very overprotective toward myself for long

For not to be hurt, not to be scar

But in return I lost alot

to experience something

C saw me today and said thank you for my help the other time

She gave me little present as her gratitude

It wasnt what she gave me that move me

But the feeling of me able to help someone

I miss those feeling

Remind me to be sincere

remind me to be brave

as my journey is long and rocky

but love from others keep me move on

Thus

the basic of all need

love

itself

Labels: little thought

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March Trip~

Thursday, April 09, 2009

London Trip

Skiing at SaasFee

Neuchatel day Trip

Geneva Trip

Labels: travel

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