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Thursday, May 26, 2005

I admit that I am quite sensitive this few days about every single things. Today I couldnt control my overwhelming anger. I tried not too, but it just seems to hard for me. So much that I want to hate it but I cant. I could just slap it but I know it wont make things better either. I couldnt do anything. That makes me angry to myself. And I failed my fasting too. I am Selfish!


I ate alot just now. I cant believe I can eat that much. After I had my dinner, I ate ice-cream continue with bread and fruits and Jams.. I love Jam! I love kaya.. Today my eyes pain. I wanted to get early sleep. But it seems to hard to close my eyes without remembering what happened today.
Anyway I already forgiven him when I walked out of the toilet. I just try to make him feel guilty and learn from his mistake. He seems no one teach or care about his childish attitude. Well I care!! I dont think his friends like it, being treated that way. But if he still being the same one.. then he is hopeless. He is 20 years old. And 20 years old should know what is right or wrong. Should know what is appropriate and not. Should know where is the limit of joking or abusing!!! Grow Up MAN! Grow Up!

.. I dont know if I am being childish too. I feel sad to have such a friend. I might not have much friends. But each of them are important to me. One of my main purpose of living is to make people happy. To make them feel they are SOMEBODY to me.

Graduation are so near. It just a few months ahead. I started looking for my next schools. I feel sad have to leave all my friends down here. Or I am just sad because I am going to be alone there.. Honestly I am scared.

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