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Monday, January 31, 2005

I lost My Brown hi-tech pen.. with the bear sticker on it! T.T

I've found myself acted very wild and weird.. I think what Kok said is true. I getting very loud each day. Whats the matter with me? What had caused this changes?
But sometimes when I reflect.. I found myself v annoying and acting v bad! No manner.. attitude gal~ WTH. I aM noT That kind oF GaL!

Today I am very late to school. I woke up at 9.00~ My maid woke me up. She asked me whether I got school today. I shook my head unconciously. I was sleeping! And she said, "Okay, get more sleep! I help you turn off the light". Then I continue my sleep.. until.. the sun is so bright entering my room's window, I realise it wasnt my off day!
Then I have to waste money take taxi to school...........
No money already la..

Then today give free $10 converse voucher to classmate~ Hmm.. Coz I think I wont be used it. Fadzil run so fast to get the voucher. HAha.. Never see him move that fast.
Thought a bit heart-pain see my voucher flew, but I think its better to give other to use then I kept until expired.

Today I didnt manage to watch the Pua Chu Kang and Lydia..!! My favourite show currently. I wanted to watch Achar also.. when is it???

Lately I been dream weirdly. I dream that in the dream I was sleeping and dreaming. SO in that dream I had a nightmare, then when I woke up, it was still in the dream, on my bed but the room very big... So I slept again and dream again..
Lucky it was weekend when I dreamt that..

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Well I would consider today is the first time I really fasting. Last time I did fasting but not really get the meaning behind it. Furthermore last time I fast because people asked me to do it.

I made decision to fast for today as a sacrifice. Lord remind me alot time in Mathew 6:24 and Luke 16:13. That I couldnt serve 2 master at the same time.I cannot being loyal for Lord and mammon at the same time.

And I very grateful that alot my friends are trying to give me tips about fasting and what to do and not.

How I wish to tell you that....... I......

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

I spend so much on that facial stuff..
HUH! My money like flew away for nothing~
But I dont know what to do..
Lucky when I told my mom, she didnt get angry
to me.. I'm so scared.
Mom and Dad.. unresolving problems been on and on ever since the casino in batam getting bigger. I dont know why my dad is so obsess with the gambling.
He like donating to the casino company. Will he ever wake up??

My poly life is left about 1.5 years. I still have a lot doubt about where should I continue my studies. Some part of me asked me to go Canada(Ontario), or.. US(California) or Ohio??
US will be very expensive and so far away. My sisters and brother still need to further their studies too. Am I selfish by deciding to go US?
Or Canada? Canada is less expensive, but their business school.. Sucks..
Or I just stop schooling? And work for Singapore government..?

As I grow older, my siblings grow older, I could feel the relationship between us are getting apart. They are too busy with their life, and forgetting about family.
While me, I just started being part of the family in this few years. Amazingly it is easier for me to be open to my mom recently which I never did before.
I wasnt a mommy girl or daddy girl. In my youth I talked to no one about my stuff. I see my parents as 'parents'. Must respect them. Love? I dont feel it at all.
Only when I went abroad, and had alot conflicts, then I realised that they concern about me in different ways.
When my siblings slept one room with my parents, I feel so uneasy to sleep with them.
I feel so uneasy when I was in my parents room.. I seemed like a stranger. So normally after dinner, I will just go into my room and played with my cousin.

Now is 2005.
Memory are still memory..
I could neither forget it or ignore it.
Each morning I wake up I will just wait for a miracle to happen to my family.
They are the only things that I had now.
And You God..



Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Seeing my friends fall in love..
Seem so happy..
While I'm fall in love..
seem so sad..


Thursday, January 13, 2005

I cant stop listening these song since last night. I used to go KTV and my friends will sing these song. I dont know what it mean but I love it. But since I know the meaning, I love it even more.
*Hao Xing fen shou - Candy Lo & Wan Lee Hong*


I found something very interesting and yet very funny.
It's called the Boyfriend's Arm pillow, created by Kameo Corporation.

Girlfriend's lap pillow


This pillow are actually selling well in Japan. Maybe one day if unwanted and very lonely I would thinking of buying the boyfriend's arm pillow.. Hahaha..


Tuesday, January 11, 2005

I stayed at home whole day today.. But time passed so fast. I remembered doing nothing today.
Since the maid fell sick, I need to clean my room and toilet by myself. And my cupboard are so messy. I havent pack it yet. And I clean up the food in my room. Some of the food I never touch for very long time. Just now I was intended to cook the bubble tea pearl. The pearl is given to me long ago. When I wanted to cook, the pearl turn into powder.. Yucks....
Today I cancel two outing. I felt rather guilty. Not because I cannot go.. But I dont feel like going out of the house. Am I bad?
My sister at home alone.. and I just bought 2 church's songs.

Is this template really that bad? People said the previous one is better..

Monday, January 10, 2005


YuHoo...
Finally I manage to finish my template..
I know its very late now. But somehow I dont feel sleepy at all.
^^
This blog looks very untidy. haha.. But I loved it alot.
Because it done by me and for me..
so who care what other said!



Monday, January 03, 2005

Testing..
Hi 2005..
How are you?
I hope we can be a good friends..
You treat me well and I'll do my best!

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